Mood: 
chilling
Now Playing: Hard Habit to Break (Chicago)
On Sunday I had to help with doing food preparations for the Volunteer Tea Party (VTP), that the church was hosting for all the volunteers (the stewards, the people on the front desk and the people who help out in the pantry and kiosk … it’s a large church). Anyway, I often wonder how I get myself into these things, but I’ve found the answer. Let me illustrate how I got into volunteering for this in the first place:
At a meeting, sitting at my chair, trying to make myself look as inconspicuous as possible, particularly when I hear them start asking for volunteers for particular events. Then they mentioned the volunteer tea party and they were looking for some people to help in the food preparation as well prepping the place for the party and they wanted people who were not already volunteers since they wanted to make this special for the volunteers.
And then I could feel it, all eyes were on me, just with burning intensity, and I could hear the voices in their heads going, “You could do it. We know that you’re not doing anything. You’re free on Sunday. You have nothing burning to do. No prior commitments. Of course you can do it”.
And before I could stop myself, I’m saying out aloud, “Uh … I … uh … I could …um … probably do it”, whilst my inner mind is screaming, “What are you doing!!! Who told you to volunteer?”.
But you know being the reflexive person that I am, I know that beyond a doubt there were no burning eyes on me … it was just my guilty conscience making itself known … I really have to sit down and have a serious talk with that guilty conscience because it gets me into all sorts of scrapes 
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